Do Your Best To Live In The Present!
Gosh, it has been quite a long time since I have posted in this blog! Let's just say I have been consumed with work and life and no time to sit down and write. But, I saw a picture the other and it just spoke to me and gave me some inspiration.
This picture really spoke to me!
I don't know if many people know, but I do suffer from very bad anxiety and in some sense depression. I have been dealing with this since I was young (all started in 7th grade). It is a daily battle with my emotions and on most days I come out winning...but, other days I hit extreme lows that makes it hard to get through the day.
Recently, I have had those low low days and it has been a struggle to fight. I wish I could tell you what causes these emotions- trust me I really wish I knew too!! When I go through these hard times I find that I take it out on the people I love the most- my husband, my family and my friends. Believe me I wish I could make these feeling just go away!! I know I need to find someone to talk to and I need to get my emotions in check because I know this is going to hurt me in the future. I am so beyond happy with my life. I have a great husband, wonderful pets, a great family a a really nice job. Why can't I just be normal? Why can't my emotions just be normal? Why do I have to wake up each morning, look in the mirror and hype myself on conquering my emotions everyday?
Unfortunately, that question can't be answered....I have tried numerous times to answer those questions and to just be NORMAL! I can't....
I am only writing to get my feelings out, but I want to shout out to anyone else who goes through this daily struggle. I want you to know you are not alone. You are one of millions of people who go through everyday as a fight to beat out those horrible emotions.
Me, I hide this problem to the world. I guess I should have been an actress because I make sure no one knows the struggle I go through...even my family don't know the full extent of what I go through everyday. That I have learned is a bad thing. Tell people you are struggling. Ask for help, ask for support! The more help and support you have behind you the better you will get at beating out those bad/sad emotions.
I am still having those low low days...and still trying to be normal! I really need to sit back and look at this picture and focus on living in the present! Not the past, not the future...the PRESENT and just living at peace.
I do not want anyone to think this message is a cry for help! It is not. It is a way for me to get my feelings out and my thoughts down on paper. I encourage those who suffer from anxiety and depression to keep a journal- I am actually going to go buy one today at Target. Writing down your thoughts is the best way to set them free!!!
I am sorry for the long message. I just needed to get my feelings out and I will continue to grow and better myself and learn how to handle my emotions even more! I wish you all the best of luck with your struggles and know you are not alone.
